A Year of Gratitude

This past year has been, to say the least, rough. We've had debt up to our eyeballs, two small kids, a cross country move, moving in with family, news of an unexpected pregnancy, followed by a miscarriage, a new job, extended days of travel for my husband and most recently holidays away from my family for the third time ever.

Tonight, I'm sitting in my in-laws living room while my hubby is three hours away working out of town for all of this week. Ending in his birthday, on which he will hopefully be able to leave early enough to be home for dinner. Tonight is the first major holiday we've been apart since we met. But at least we had him home for Christmas.

All of these things, along with the issues, mostly of a particularly bright and precocious four year old have not made much easy.

I have spent many days feeling alone, sad and pretty awful about myself.

All of that said, I want next year to be different. I'm not a New Years Resolution kind of girl. I do believe in constantly improving myself however. And while we've actually had many good times, smiles and happy memories this year there's been something missing. While things are improving, it often feels like it's getting worse. Mostly, positive movement is just slow and it takes patience. 

Patience, we believe is our big lesson right now. Our big message we're trying to listen to right now. Have patience and slowly but surely you'll see yourself where you've been trying to go.

To help us get there, gratitude. This is the big plan for the next year, gratitude to save us from our own bad attitudes.

Stick around, see how it goes.